This weekend was...brillant.

I'm not quite ready to share yet. because it was brillant and I can't quite grasp it all.

but I know that I was so happy.

and maybe it wasn't all quite right. maybe it wasn't quite fairy tale or story book.

but it made me blissfully, unexplainably thrilled.

I had butterflies.

I STILL have butterflies.

It's been awhile since I've felt quite this way. This unexplainable happiness.

It's also been a really long time since I threw my schedule out the window, let my hair hang down and just let myself be.

In fact it took awhile, quite a few hours, for me to remember how to.

But I can tell you that I flew quite high this weekend (no I didn't GET high, I FLEW high).
and I laughed and GIGGLED freely like I haven't in a long time.

Yes I've giggled...but not like this.

I haven't felt this free, this far away from the things that weigh me down, from things that hurt me in a long, long time.

Could it be that I'm finally to the peak of being over it all? Is that feeling I talked about in my last post. Is that where it came from? Is this what being over it feels like? as over it all as one can get.

Did I really need samantha to kick me in the ass to figure it all out?

God works in the most mysterious ways and I feel I'll never truly understand. ever.

I do know however that I never want to forget this weekend if for no reason but the shear bliss, the butterflies and sense of safe and true and wonderful.

that is all.

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