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11.30.2003 > Just for this morning, I am
> going to step over the laundry, > and pick you up and take you to the park to > play. > > Just for this morning, I will > leave the dishes in the sink, > and let you teach me how to put that puzzle > of yours together. > > Just for this afternoon, I will > unplug the telephone and > keep the computer off, and sit with you in the > backyard and blow bubbles. > > Just for this afternoon, I will > not yell once, not even a > tiny grumble when > you scream and whine for the ice > cream truck, and I will buy you one if > he comes by. > > Just for this afternoon, I won't > worry about what you are > going to be when you grow up, or second guess > every decision I have made > where you are concerned. > > Just for this afternoon, I will let > you help me bake cookies, and I won't > stand over you trying to fix them. > Just for this afternoon, I will take > us to McDonald's and buy us both a > Happy Meal so you can have both toys. > > Just for this evening, I will hold > you in my arms and tell you a story > about how you were born and how > much I love you. > > Just for this evening, I will let > you splash in the tub and > not get angry. > > Just for this even ing, I will let > you stay up late while we sit on the > porch and count all the stars. > > > Just for this evening, I will > snuggle beside you for hours, > and miss my favorite TV shows. > Just for this evening when I run > my finger through your hair > as you pray, I will simply be grate! ful that God > has given me the greatest gift ever > given. > > I will think about the mothers > And fathers who are searching > for their missing children, > the mothers and fathers who are > visiting their children's graves > instead of their bedrooms, and mothers and > fathers who are in hospital rooms watching > their children suffer senselessly, and screaming inside that they can't > handle it anymore. > > And when I kiss you good night I > will hold you a little tighter, a > little longer. It is then, that I will< BR>thank God for you, and ask > him for nothing, except one more day............. Searching For on 11/30/2003 09:10:00 PM.
11.29.2003 I'm such a mess. Chris & I were working on our phyics project today and he would say things and we'd be messing around and all of a sudden he'd say something and I'd just be so amazed. He can be so much like Nate sometimes and respond the exact same way and it just, it's like a shock. It used to remind me about Nate and I'd be like awww see I have my boyfriend to come home to. Now I'm like awwwww and I tear up. Don't ask me what my problem is. It seemed like the right thing to do I mean I contemplated it for so long and I took everything I knew and I just. Then Nate wrote me an email last night and I was completely in tears. I guess I just wasn't ready, I'm still not ready. I wasn't ready to just say goodbye. I mean I respect him so much for not taking me back, it's like unreal how...good? I think that is, but crimony it hurt. I felt so rejected and I just. I'm so...lost. and I'm such a mess. I'm smiling and putting on a happy face but on the inside I'm a mess. I can hardly sleep and I cry I just burst into tears and I NEVER cry. Now he's gone for a week so I can't even talk to him about it. I hate it. Searching For on 11/29/2003 10:19:00 PM.
"Love is...
What makes a weak man brave And a king step off his thrown Good times, bad times Easy times, tough times It comes in an instant And lasts three days after forever That's what love is." "Love feels no burden, thinks nothing of trouble, attempts what is above its strength, pleads no excuse of impossibility... It is therefore able to undertake all things, and it completes many things, and warrants them to take effect, where he who does not love would faint and lie down. Love is watchful and sleeping, slumbereth not. Though weary, it is not tired; though pressed, it is not straitened; though alarmed, it is not confounded..." ~ Thomas A. Kempis "We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesn't diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives." ~ From the movie "The Mirror Has Two Faces" (starring Barbara Streisand) "Love isn't blind, it just only sees what matters." ~William Curry "Love reminds you that nothing else matters." ~ Amy Bushell "Love is a decision not an emotion or feeling, that if made from the heart will outlast anything..." ~Raul and Samantha Juarez Searching For on 11/29/2003 10:14:00 PM.
11.28.2003 I tried so hard, my dear, to show
that you're my every dream Yet you're afraid each thing I do Is just some evil scheme A memory from your lonesome past keeps us so far apart Why can't I free your doubtful mind and melt your cold, cold heart? Another love, before my time, made your heart sad an' blue, and so my heart is paying now for things I didn't do In anger, unkind words are said that make the teardrops start Why can't I free your doubtful mind And melt your cold, cold heart? There was a time when I believed that you belonged to me but now I know your heart is shackled to a memory The more I learn to care for you the more we drift apart Why can't I free your doubtful mind and melt your cold, cold heart? Searching For on 11/28/2003 12:32:00 PM.
Sometimes Norah says it best.....
I waited 'til I saw the sun I don't know why I didn't come I left you by the house of fun I don't know why I didn't come I don't know why I didn't come When I saw the break of day I wished that I could fly away Instead of kneeling in the sand Catching teardrops in my hand My heart is drenched in wine But you'll be on my mind Forever Out across the endless sea I would die in ecstacy But I'll be a bag of bones Driving down the road alone My heart is drenched in wine But you'll be on my mind Forever Something has to make you run I don't know why I didn't come I feel as empty as a drum I don't know why I didn't come I don't know why I didn't come I don't know why I didn't come Searching For on 11/28/2003 12:27:00 PM.
"If you are ashamed to stand by your colors, you had better
seek another flag." --Anon. Searching For on 11/28/2003 10:24:00 AM.
"The biggest mistake is believing that there is one right way
to listen, to talk, to have a conversation – or a relationship." --Deborah Tannen "We measure success and depth by length of time, but it is possible to have a deep relationship that doesn't always stay the same." --Barbara Hershey "Ideally, couples need three lives; one for him, one for her, and one for them together." -Jacqueline Bisset And the Friday Five~ 1. Do you like to shop? Why or why not? I love it dearly. I dunno, I just always have 2. What was the last thing you purchased? Stuff for Christmas this morning 3. Do you prefer shopping online or at an actual store? Why? Store, I have to try stuff on 4. Did you get an allowance as a child? How much was it? nope 5. What was the last thing you regret purchasing? hmmmm really regret? these movies I just rented......they were awful Searching For on 11/28/2003 10:23:00 AM.
11.27.2003 So I was contemplating something the other day just thinking about it really. I was thinking about how whenever Kyle and I get involved in a relationship we push the other away and I was wondering... I was truly pondering if that wasn't because I am always afraid of what I'll do. Kyle is the friend who has always been there and has always told me when I'm full of shit and never been afraid of me. He's been there through my tears and he knows most of my dreams. And he always ALWAYS knows what the say and when to say it. In the perfect life, he would be at my side for the rest of my life, but life isn't perfect....but....I wonder..... Searching For on 11/27/2003 10:03:00 PM.
Happy Thanksgiving all~
I'm thankful for my most wonderful brother and Jenny and WUCY!!!! And my wonderful mom, the keeper of the answers of life and dad, of course my feline siblings. I am thankful for my most wonderful grandparents and their active role in my life. I am thankful for my family. I am thankful for my best friend and soul sister, Marlena. I am thankful for keeper of my dreams and the one I believe just may hold the key to my heart, Kyle. I am thankful for Tim, he finally showed me that all men are not evil. =-} I am thankful for friends that I couldn't live without, like Bob and Andrew. I am thankful for all my past experiences, for all of them, from the best of the best, to worst of the worst, because from them, I have learned something, I have grown and I have became the woman that I am today. I am thankful for my home, my bed, and all the love that surrounds me in good times and in bad. I am thankful for all the pointless material things that I enjoy. Have a most glorious Thanksgiving.....and this was a splendid idea Lana~ Searching For on 11/27/2003 10:00:00 PM.
11.26.2003 Two Beds And a Coffee Machine
and she takes another step slowly she opens the door check that he is sleeping pick up all the broken glass and furniture on the floor been up half the night screaming now it's time to get away pack up the kids in the car another bruise to try and hide another alibi to write another ditch in the road you keep moving another stop sign you keep moving on and the years go by so fast wonder how I ever made it through and there are children to think of baby's asleep in the back seat wonder how they'll ever make it through this living nightmare but the mind is an amazing thing full of candy dreams and new toys and another cheap hotel two beds and a coffee machine but there are groceries to buy and she knows she'll have to go home another ditch in the road you keep moving another stop sign you keep moving on and the years go by so fast wonder how I ever made it through another bruise to try and hide another alibi to write another lonely highway in the black of night there's hope in the darkness I know you're gonna make it another ditch in the road keep moving another stop sign you keep moving on and the years go by so fast silent fortress built to last wonder how I ever made it Searching For on 11/26/2003 12:56:00 PM.
Going shopping with my mom for Christmas!!!! Gap here I come! I love shopping for people, especially Lana and Jenny! Searching For on 11/26/2003 12:54:00 PM.
BAH HUMBUG! I was so looking forward to the stress free holidays and guess what? I'm still stressed. I have a huge calc test when I get back and did some stupid stuff on our last quiz so I have to do well on this like 4 day test. And our homework is IMPOSSIBLE. I also have a five paragraph espanol essay I have to write. SO BAH HUMBUG. and my physics project is an absolute mess. BAH HUMBUG. Too much school work to do over break. Too much to feel guilty about. I'm supposed to go shopping today but I'm waiting for my mom to wake up. I thought holidays were supposed to be stressless!! Mrph. And of course I miss Nate. bahhhhhhh humbugggggg. Okay I'm done now Searching For on 11/26/2003 11:27:00 AM.
11.25.2003 Oh it's a girls night tonight.......there will be notes on this! haha. I can't wait......we all need one so badly! Searching For on 11/25/2003 05:11:00 PM.
haha
Pirates of the Caribbean! Searching For on 11/25/2003 05:05:00 PM.
"What Type of Soul Do You Have ?" - Results:
As if you were born into a world of tears, you always tend to look at the darker things in life. Inside you crave attention yet push away society, and you're a hopeless romantic. Drawn to things like the occult and mysteries, you spend your time daydreaming of "What If's". Searching For on 11/25/2003 03:22:00 PM.
"Patience and fortitude conquer all things."
--Ralph Waldo Emerson "Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. The fearful are caught as often as the bold." --Helen Keller Searching For on 11/25/2003 02:57:00 PM.
11.23.2003 I miss him so Searching For on 11/23/2003 03:48:00 PM.
Well...It is a most glorious Sunday weather-wise. It's beautiful outside without question. I had a Witness meeting this morning and I am supposed to go out with Diana and company soon. I have an absolute ton of homework. Blah. So anyway this morning this I woke up in tears, which happens on OCCASION. But truly, I mean, I was so confused. I had what I thought was the most wonderful dream, although admitely terribly wicked in some aspects, but oh so romantic. One of those dreams that would make you glow all day long....until you realize you just had the most wonderful dream about your ex-boyfriend. I mean, talk about messed up. Okay, so now before I fall asleep I don't know what to think about and my mind wonders every which way, but I just don't get it. I might have dreamt of Nate...5 times max in 8 months and now I have this perfectly marvelous dream. I mean you'd think my subconscious would go back to dreaming about....I dunno Dan Schuler or Kyle or ANYONE. Life is so confusing. But it's a beautiful day...and I'm going to remember exactly how beautiful of a day it is. Searching For on 11/23/2003 03:29:00 PM.
11.22.2003 Well it was a relaxing Saturday, I have to go get ready and go out to church with my grandparents, mama is working and daddy hurt his back. I sitting here thinking about all the black outfits I picked out yesterday and how I'm going to wear my black turtleneck to church tonight and I laughed. Lana, we're more alike in so many ways that fascinate my mind. I truly am a bit behind you but ALWAYS, especially when I'm not planning it. I was kinda sad, because you know you break up with your boyfriend and even if in your heart you know it was the right thing to do, you still remember all the good times and the good things. But anyway, I was really thinking about going to church with grandma and grandpa and I was thinking about getting ready and I just had some flashbacks of all the times we've gotten ready together and I was sad, I wish you were here now, even though if we did live in the same plane we're hate each other. You'll always be my saving grace when I've lost all faith in everything else and I couldn't pick a better person to be my maid of honor, now all I need is a groom! haha! Anyway, I must go get ready for church and most likely dinner (you know how it is with grandma and grandpa) it'll be some good times though, good times.....Then I'll prolly go out with Meg or Carrie or someone, who knows. Perhaps I'll work on my admission essays for college and get some homework done and that way tommorrow I won't be stressing! Although it's hard to be stressed when the Christma spritit gets into your bones! I have to do my shopping! Too bad the Golden Girls CD didn't come out yet, I guess I'll just have to find something else just as good! Oh and Lana, my peacoat is short as well....do we have matching ones? Cuz if we do, my mom is sooo in trouble! haha...kidding, but great minds do think alike! Searching For on 11/22/2003 03:30:00 PM.
1. List five things you'd like to accomplish by the end of the year.
Scholarships, being accepted to college, being skinny again, having muscles again, being valedictorian 2. List five people you've lost contact with that you'd like to hear from again. Chuck, my brother!, lana (but only a lil lil bit, so that's okay, we used to have send snail mail letters! Imagine that!), I dunno anyone else, I was reaching when I said lana and phil 3. List five things you'd like to learn how to do. sing harmony off the top of my head, play the piano, play the guitar, sky dive, climb mountains 4. List five things you'd do if you won the lottery (no limit). Buy myself a private jet, fly to Lana's buy us a big ass house that we could split and have our families live together, buy my parents whatever they want, go on shopping spree, go to college in....Tennessee or.....Georgia or California 5. List five things you do that help you relax. Read, write on my blog, watch tv with my mom, run, sing at the top of my lungs while driving Searching For on 11/22/2003 03:23:00 PM.
11.21.2003 ahh well....so much has happened, but I'm a very happy girl. My mom and I went shopping for Christmas tonight! The other night we went and she bought me a CASHMERE and wool dashing red peacoat. It's awesome, it's for Christmas of course but she wanted me to try it on. Oh it's fabulous. Then I found some absolutely stunning things at New York and we're going to the Gap and the outlets next Wednesday. I need gloves and scarf! perhaps a hat. But my mom is actually being sneaky this year! So I won't know for sure what I'm getting!!! YIPPIE! But I did break up with Nate and I cannot say that I'm sad. It was fun while it lasted but all good things must come to an end. My mom and I went to Friendly's tonight, so of course we had some talks. My mom was sooooo cute, it was the first time I ever heard her say "Don't get my wrong, I love your father" I thought it was so cute, I just wanted to take her home with me (oh wait I did haha!). But she was so supportive of me, it just made me really really happy. I think I'm going to marry a southern guy, truthfully. In fact I was contemplating going to school in the South. We had this speaker the other day who spurred this on in my mind. He was from Nashville and he was just the coolest guy and the way he just talked about things.....it was awesome (he was married, I was thinking about it like that) but yes anyway, I am considering it. And Lana OR Tim I would like to know if Tim is coming up after Christmas, because that would cheer me up. Of course Lana coming will make me estatic!!!! I love you so much girl! but Tim coming would just be "the icing on the cake" as my calc teacher, Mrs. Louttit, would say. and if Phil's here when ya'll are....Phil and Tim can stay together in my house and Lana and I together I'm pretty sure, because last time my parents mentioned that. Of course that would have to be cleared and I dunno if Tim would want to, but at least it would give me access to a somewhat normal world, and hey, there are always enough computers to go around! haha. Well I am in a glorious mood but I must go get ready for a FRIDAY NIGHT AT MEGHAN'S!!!!!! wow I've missed my friends, I'm so excited and I'm so ready for this!! Love you all!!!!!!!! Lana LYLAS!!!!! Searching For on 11/21/2003 08:13:00 PM.
11.16.2003 If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
Happy moments, praise God. Difficult moments, seek God. Quiet moments, worship God. Painful moments, trust God. Every moment, thank God, Searching For on 11/16/2003 06:45:00 PM.
1. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
2. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. 3. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart. 4. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them. 5. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile..... 6. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world. 7. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you. 8. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful. 9. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened. 10. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around. 11. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you. 12. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to. REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON. Searching For on 11/16/2003 05:52:00 PM.
So here I sit with my hot mango tea that we have been in constant supply of since my 7th grade year. I used to think no one ever drank the stuff except myself and only when I was in a contemplative mood. then I learned that my mom always makes sure we have some...so we can all drink it when are in a contemplative mood or when it's a rainy Saturday and I want to curl up and read. So here I sit contemplating my relationship and in hopes that Nathen darling will appear. Is that likely? No, he said he most likely wouldn't be on and if he was it would be rather late. But still.....just the hope of it all. And when he finally does get on and if...I will be thinking warm thoughts about my bed. Still...I can't convince myself to go to bed until at least 1:30...just in case. I will pay for it in the morning but I think getting up about 9 should be alright for the day. I have some government and English reading to do and it wouldn't hurt to try and figure out what the hell is going on in calculus and get some early studying in and work on writing and FINISHING my college essays. Then I have RC @ 5. I was rather hoping to spend some time with Nate at the park but my Sunday's always seemed packed with frantic activity. I swear it's going to rain buckets tommorrow because my back feels as though it is going to die. I swear everyone has gotten out of giving me massages. I might have to track Carrie down tommorrow or Meg because I'm about to burst. PT starts this week though so I suppose I had best get used to being sore. I like being that kind of sore though and tired...well not when I'm trying to do homework or anything but...I love that feeling that your body is being worked to death and you feel like oxygen will never normally return to your lungs. that's great stuff, seriously. Well....I'm off to finish catching up on Bob's blogs. If only I could write blogs for a college class..... Searching For on 11/16/2003 12:58:00 AM.
11.15.2003 I love you darling Searching For on 11/15/2003 09:44:00 PM.
Mrph....Truly I just don't get most guys, they're such jerks!
********** [8:58 PM]: i still say you get ur sexy ass up here Leap of Faith 17 [8:58 PM]: lol, I don't think that would be a good idea Leap of Faith 17 [8:58 PM]: Besides I'm too tired **********[8:59 PM]: then once you get here, you can stay the night Leap of Faith 17 [9:00 PM]: lol Leap of Faith 17 [9:01 PM]: I have things to do tommorrow **********[9:01 PM]: excuses excuses Leap of Faith 17 [9:01 PM]: lol Leap of Faith 17 [9:01 PM]: I'm a faithful girlfriend that loves her boyfriend more than anyone else in the world...what can I say? **********[9:02 PM]: That's not what I hear nor what I know, faithful is not the word for you Leap of Faith 17 [9:02 PM]: Oh really? You know huh? Shouldn't I know then too? And I definitely don't know **********[9:03 PM]: Oh you know, you just don't want to remember Leap of Faith 17 [9:03 PM]: oh fuck off, I never have and never will Searching For on 11/15/2003 09:43:00 PM.
THE FRIDAY FIVE
1. Using one adjective, describe your current living space. Tiny 2. Using two adjectives, describe your current employer. Invisible 3. Using three adjectives, describe your favorite hobby/pasttime. Wild, exciting, speed 4. Using four adjectives, describe your typical day. frustrating, difficult, stressed, never-ending 5. Using five adjectives, describe your ideal life. Joyous, relaxing, beautiful, wild, fascinating Searching For on 11/15/2003 08:44:00 PM.
"Crash And Burn"
When you feel all alone And the world has turned its back on you Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore Let me be the one you call If you jump I'll break your fall Lift you up and fly away with you into the night If you need to fall apart I can mend a broken heart If you need to crash then crash and burn You're not alone When you feel all alone And a loyal friend is hard to find You're caught in a one way street With the monsters in your head When hopes and dreams are far away and You feel like you can't face the day Let me be the one you call If you jump I'll break your fall Lift you up and fly away with you into the night If you need to fall apart I can mend a broken heart If you need to crash then crash and burn You're not alone And there has always been heartache and pain And when it's over you'll breathe again You'll breath again When you feel all alone And the world has turned its back on you Give me a moment please To tame your wild wild heart Let me be the one you call If you jump I'll break your fall Lift you up and fly away with you into the night If you need to fall apart I can mend a broken heart If you need to crash then crash and burn You're not alone Searching For on 11/15/2003 08:35:00 PM.
11.14.2003 So it's Friday and I'm so glad. I may have bombed my calc test but...it's Friday, lol. Chris promised to let Diana go tonight because she's on call and he's off, so that was sweet of him. I dunno what on earth he had to talk to me about. I need a nap but I'm not quite in the mood yet. I'm missing a sweater....it's completely MIA and it's like....my favorite sweater. I was not happy about that. I'm glad to be going out with Diana and John tonight along with Nate, it'll be a nice change. I'm hating this weather, don't get my wrong I LOVE snow, I hate the cold but I hate snow and sweaters and everything else. But the cold gives me chapped lips and permanent Bullen cheeks. Anyway I think I'm going to go read my lovely novel and perhaps take a nap until Diana calls and then I'll get a shower and take way too long to get ready...hmm I'd better go through my throw my jeans in the washer first....and search for something to wear since it's sooo cold. I'm so going shopping this weekend! okay so maybe not for a ton of stuff, but since I start PT next week I'm excited! Well...sleep calls.......later all. Searching For on 11/14/2003 02:59:00 PM.
11.10.2003 Maybe it was right, maybe it was wrong but....I made a choice and I'll live with it and I'll learn from it and I'll grow from it Searching For on 11/10/2003 09:46:00 PM.
11.09.2003 The Night the Lights Went Out in Georgia
~Reba He was on his way home from Candletop Been two weeks gone and he thought he'd stop At Web's and have him a drink for he went home to her Andy Wo-Lo said hello He said "Hi what's a doing" Wo said "Sit down I got some bad news that's gonna hurt" Said I'm your best friend and you know that's right But your young bride ain't home tonight Since you been gone she's been seeing that Amos boy Seth He got mad and he saw red Andy said boy don't you lose your head Cause to tell you the truth I've been with her myself That's the night the lights went out in Georgia That's the night that they hung an innocent man Don't trust your soul to no back woods Southern lawyer Cause the judge in the town's got bloodstains on his hand Andy got scared and left the bar Walking on home cause he didn't live far you see Andy didn't have many friends and he just lost him one Brother thought his wife must've left town So he went home and finally found the only thing Daddy had left him and that was a gun He went off to Andy's house Slipping through the back woods quiet as a mouse Came upon some tracks too small for Andy to make He looked through the screen at the back porch door He saw Andy lying on the floor In a puddle of blood and he started to shake The Georgia patrol was making their rounds So he fired a shot just to flag em down And a big bellied sheriff grabbed his gun and said "Why'd you do it?" That's the night the lights went out in Georgia That's the night that they hung an innocent man Don't trust your soul to no back woods Southern lawyer Cause the judge in the town's got bloodstains on his hand They hung my brother before I could say The tracks he saw while on his way To Andy's house and back that night were mine And his cheatin wife had never left town And that's one body that'll be found You see little sister don't miss when she aims her gun That's the night the lights went out in Georgia That's the night that they hung an innocent man Don't trust your soul to no back woods Southern lawyer Cause the judge in the town's got bloodstains on his hand That's the night the lights went out in Georgia That's the night that they hung an innocent man Don't trust your soul to no back woods Southern lawyer Cause the judge in the town's got bloodstains on his hand Searching For on 11/09/2003 08:53:00 PM.
Sweet Music Man
~Reba Sing a song sweet music man Cause I won't be there to hold your hand Like I used to I'm through with you You're a hell of a singer and a powerful man But you surround yourself with people who demand so little of you You touched my soul with your beautiful song You even had me singin' along Right with you You said I need you Then you changed the words and added harmony Then you sang a song you had written for me to someone new Nobody sings a love song quite like you do And nobody else can make me sing along Nobody else can make me feel That things are right when I know they're wrong Nobody sings a love song quite like you Sing your song sweet music man You travel the world with a six-piece band That does for you what you ask them to You try to stay young but the songs you sung To so many people they've all begun to come back on you Sing your song sad music man You're makin' your livin' doin' one night stands They're through with you they don't need you You're still a hell of a singer but a broken man But you'll keep on lookin' for one last fan to sing to Nobody sings a love song quite like you do And nobody else can make me sing along Nobody else can make me feel That things are right when I know they're wrong Nobody sings a love song quite like you Searching For on 11/09/2003 08:24:00 PM.
Ever just really want to be on the beach? With the waves and the peace and tranquility. And the feeling that everything goes on forever and you'll always be happy? Searching For on 11/09/2003 08:04:00 PM.
I just finished watching "While You Were Sleeping" I will never tire of that movie. I'm in tears, absolute tears. It's a good thing my parents aren't down here, they would think I was nuts. I mean I am nuts but. It's such an awesome movie. It always reminds me no matter how much hell someone goes through, somewhere...sometime God blesses them and they find happiness. What a wonderful world.
"Lord, when I get to Heaven, can I taste the Milky Way? "I don't wanna come to visit 'cause I'm comin' home to stay? "An' I can't wait to see my family and meet Jesus face to face. "An' do you think, Lord, you could use just one more Angel, "To help pour out the rain?" Searching For on 11/09/2003 08:01:00 PM.
11.07.2003 "I don't wanna fight no more / I forgot what we were fighting for / And this loneliness that's in my heart / oh makes me apart from you / I don't want have to try to live without in my life / so I'm hoping we can start tonight / cuz I don't wanna fight no more."
Westlife "I Don't Wanna Fight" Searching For on 11/07/2003 11:06:00 PM.
There are very few things a cute chick flick won't fix...weird moods being one of them. I love you darling~ Searching For on 11/07/2003 11:02:00 PM.
You have that feeling of being like sooooo drained and you're so uncertain. Like you had everything planned and then BAM! all those plans started seeming so shaky and now you're afraid everything is just going to fall apart and as much as you tell yourself, it's fine, it'll go back to how things were. Then you start over analyzing everything and you can't stop and you can't help it and you want to stop because you don't want to think about those things. But they keep coming back and the doubt swarms you and you almost feel...unsafe? not unsafe but..vunerable? It's like you've been hurt and it hurt you so much you can't....it's like you can't get over it? And it shouldn't have even bothered you and you feel like your world is in pieces and shattered and you want to jump out of your skin and make your thoughts stop? (wow look at all those run-ons) But seriously....maybe I'm just fatigued or I dunno....I just wish I could shake this mood. Normally I'd go do some kick boxing and cry or run 5 or 6 miles until my body hurts so much my mind stops thinking about everything except the rhythem of it all. But I can't do those things and I feel like I'm going to explode......Argh Searching For on 11/07/2003 08:38:00 PM.
Help Pour Out The Rain (Lacey's Song)
(Buddy Jewell) The moment was custom-made to order: I was ridin' with my daughter on our way back from Monroe. An' like children do, she started playin' twenty questions, But I never could've guessed one would touch me to my soul. She said: "Daddy, when we get to Heaven, can I taste the Milky Way? "Are we goin' there to visit, or are we goin' there to stay? "Am I gonna see my Grandpa? Can I have a pair of wings? "An' do you think that God could use another Angel, "To help pour out the rain?" Well, I won't lie: I pulled that car right over, An' I sat there on the shoulder tryin' to dry my misty eyes. An' I whispered: "Lord, I wanna thank you for my children. "'Cause your innocence that fills them often takes me by surprise." Like: "Daddy, when we get to Heaven, can I taste the Milky Way? "Are we goin' there to visit, or are we goin' there to stay? "Am I gonna see my Grandpa? Can I have a pair of wings? "An' do you think that God could use another Angel, "To help pour out the rain?" Well, I thought about it later on, An' a smile came to my face. An' when I tucked her in to bed, I got down on my knees an' prayed. Lord, when I get to Heaven, can I taste the Milky Way? "I don't wanna come to visit 'cause I'm comin' home to stay? "An' I can't wait to see my family and meet Jesus face to face. "An' do you think, Lord, you could use just one more Angel, "To help pour out the rain?" Mmmm, can I help pour out the rain? Searching For on 11/07/2003 08:33:00 PM.
Yeah if you ever want to feel better about your relationship, watch TV. I so just watched "Missing" with my mom and it was horrible. There was the cutest scene where the girl tells this adorable guy that she loves him and he says he's so in love with her. Then some chic tells her that she slept with her boyfriend after they promised to only be together. And SHE BELIEVES HER and goes completely wild @ one of these sex parties. Okay I'm like just sitting there going I feel guilty when I smile at another guy! BUT TO FUCK LIKE 4 or 5 OTHER GUYS!? On some one else's say so!? EXCUSE ME!? Call me old fashioned but I enjoy loving my boyfriend just fine, I don't need a faithful boyfriend and 5 or 6 sex partners! ugh. Well I'm going to go take care of myself...bubble bath....candles...strange assortments from the closet. It'll be nice to relax and chill with myself although it would be nicer if I had something to read that interests me. Plus I really miss my Nathen even if we did fight. mmm I love that boy with all my heart~ Searching For on 11/07/2003 08:08:00 PM.
The Friday Five
1. What food do you like that most people hate? hmmm well I'm a big health food girl, but umm, lol perhaps tuna fish with special K, but Lana knows it's awesome! 2. What food do you hate that most people love? Chocolate, hands down! and steak 3. What famous person, whom many people may find attractive, is most unappealing to you? ummm I'm not sure on this...maybe Brat Pitt 4. What famous person, whom many people may find unappealing, do you find attractive? hmmm undecided 5. What popular trend baffles you? Lol Lana...flag thongs.....now how patriotic is it to put the American flag up your ass? I just don't understand the concept...... Searching For on 11/07/2003 03:39:00 PM.
Wise words from someone much wiser than I,
"We girls get pissed off sometime. It is in our nature." (yeah I know I don't need quotes and the italics..but I like them) Searching For on 11/07/2003 03:29:00 PM.
I so feel like hell. Probably because I couldn't sleep last night hardly, which actually was the first time in a long time but it definitely wasn't a physical problem more like a mental thing. I'm making a mental note to never be a witch and make someone fret over night because it's absolutely horrible. I mean think of the strange things that run through your head anyway late at night. I was miserable. I fell asleep so late finally that I missed my 3am breakfast and I had to eat with my parents and they actually had to move the table and stuff. My dad's like umm "rough night honey?" I was like yeah, big calc test today. My dad knows when I'm lying but he let me be. I was a mess all day too and I had to collect over 50 checks and write receipts and actually attend school, take a calc test. It was interesting. Carrie finally was like, I so can't judge your mood, I've never seen it before, but what the hell is wrong with you, you look like hell and it's Friday and we work on MainStreet on Friday so you best go home and take shower and put the whore clothes on! and I'm like suddenly bursting into tears and she's like your __________not around is _____? cuz I'll beat ____up. I love her, she gets me through everything. Rachel and I had a sweet talk today too, gotta love that girl. Anyway I hope I stop at my grandparents today because I haven't seen them in awhile and it will be nice to see them and I'm in one of those moods where it's either them or Lana. I need Lana and she called last night right when I needed her to and I wanted to call her back so badly but my parents would have killed me. It's the ESP kicking in, we're that attached. She will forever be my maid of honor (although I don't consider her a "maid" perhaps I'll change the title) no matter how many times I marry, lol. Kidding on the how many times part. Anyway....I'm going to go watch some Trading Spaces to comfort me on how much I really want to go on shopping spree with Lana or a road trip and visit some of the college life and see Tim. I'm such a mess it's unreal, but it's my own fault so... Doctor's appointment soon..hasta luego Searching For on 11/07/2003 03:26:00 PM.
11.06.2003 Sometimes I can be the biggest bitch ever. Baby I'm so sorry, I feel horribly. Don't be angry with me forever. I love you~ Searching For on 11/06/2003 10:30:00 PM.
I love you!!!!! Searching For on 11/06/2003 08:37:00 PM.
So my doctor's appointment was cancelled today because someone had a baby!! How awesome is that?! Anyway so now it's tommorrow @ 4:15...which is horrible timing..but someone had a baby!!!! HAHA! I love winter! It's so grand! Reba smells like winter from being outside. I wish it would snow! My brother called tonight....he's so grand, I love him, I'm so lucky he's my brother, he is the best ever. I can't wait to go to OSU next year! My brother is always in such a good mood and when he's not well...I dunno if Jenny is up to the challenge of getting him out of it yet, but I bet so. He and I are just so alike that we know.....how to...we're almost one in the same, it's so wonderful, I love him to death. I love how I'm special enough to have such an awesome brother. God's a great you know it? Ahh my cat so smells like winter and her winter coat is in and she's so cute. My brother sang me a drinking song and it was sooo funny. I love him. Lucy has a bladder infection! My poor doggy! haha! I could sing I swear if I weren't sick. Okay so I ran my concert choir stuff anyway, could thing I can pick up the harmonies on my own without ever hearing some of the songs, or I'd be screwed. I'm in such a good mood! But Phil always does that to me. What a fabulous brother....gotta love him! haha (inside joke sorry). Okay my thoughts are so sporadic I'm going back to calculus and government...well government eventually and perhaps some English...maybe if my boy would ever contact me I wouldn't have to worry about anything. Although I am in a wonderful mood I don't have much of an urge to go out tommorrow night. I still am sick as hell most unforuntately and I'd be suprised if I got out of the appointment by 6 and then drugs...hopefully Nate won't kill me. Plus I really don't want to get him sick, because I'm really good at that. hmmmmm lol we could always watch MR.....haha. I'm going, I'm going.... Searching For on 11/06/2003 08:36:00 PM.
11.05.2003 So I'm sitting in the latter part of 4B studyhall/my lunch period (but I'm in studyhall) with my awesome physics teacher Mrs. Dunn. I mean I have to love the women to be in the room from my lunch/her studyhall, a chemistry class and physics and I'm a teacher's aid that long...meaning I do everything for over 2 hours, especially when she's writing stuff for a class, which she is now. But as feather brained as the woman is, I love her, or I wouldn't put myself through the torture everyday, because it is torture most days. Anyway I'm talking with the girls and that laughing at me b/c I'm coming up with worst case physics day scenarios and just plain ol' mind the gutter physics senarious (last year your physics partner was also your fuck buddy basically, Mrs. Dunn called them couples, she didn't know any better, she still doesn't...we let her be happy) this year she keeps remarking on our lack of romance and girl/guy partners (Chris & I are often topic of conversation, but the physics class loves me and my simplifying ways so they're very careful and they still remember me in my BFN days.....I was easy to temper and good at defending myself and my position, quick tongue and wit and always the top knowledge). Anyway we're going through these scenarios and Alica is like my mom's going to physics day with us, just stop, so I bust out laughing and I'm like that blows then she goes...well never mind what she said, but use your imagination, then Mrs. Dunn pops in and suddenly wants to know about my love life. The women is determined the have couples in her physics class. But she's cute and I love her and she cares about me. But Alica had to leave the room b/c she's on the floor laughing because I do not talk about my personal life unless threatened or I'm particurarly happy or excited about something. I always give Diana the update and on occasion Meghan but that's about it. You just had to be there b/c I left a lot out due to....lol it's wickedness. But...today was very interesting. Still haven't gone to the doctors but I have an appointment for like 4ish tommorrow....which reminds me.....time to study calculus...... Searching For on 11/05/2003 08:04:00 PM.
Why Women Cry... A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him. "I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will." Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?" "All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say. The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry. Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?" God said: "When I made the woman she had to be special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children. I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly. I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart. I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly. And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed." "You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides." Searching For on 11/05/2003 03:04:00 PM.
11.04.2003 It's the last week of the quarter! It's cruel to be sick. My head is swimming with formulas for everything under the sun including Spanish and I have to be SICK. BAH-HUMBUG. I am like the worst sick person ever. And I must go to school and share the sickness...great. I have these really cute Bullen cheeks again and my eyes itch and my throat is miserable. And my boyfriend is MIA....I'm contemplating showering after finishing some English homework soon......bah humbug Searching For on 11/04/2003 09:54:00 PM.
yeah definitely SICK! Not cool, very very upset with this. I woke up throughout the night coughing, sneezing, etc. Woke up this morning with cute swollen glands......went to school got through day....dead tired. But I don't seem to have a lot of homework so hopefully....I'll be done by 5 and asleep by 5:15....only in my perfect world...of course I'm sure I'll wake up about 8.....just because....... Searching For on 11/04/2003 03:40:00 PM.
11.03.2003 Boyz II Men
So Amazing Oh, ooh, oh yes When you're life's walk Can't see the light of day And your hope is gone When you second-guess your faith When you turn around And realize that no one else Will believe in you only yourself When you're holding on Can't find a will to breathe Can you right the wrong? That has brought you to your knees Though you've barely lived your life You keep on believing you'll survive And all that's left is what's inside Amazing I have heard my inner voice And finally can rejoice I was lost and way down Never thought that I would be Amazing but now I'm free So you let go of love that's holding on And you close your eyes Never thought of being wrong And you surrendered half your life To a world of pain and sacrifice But through it all, through it all You make things right Amazing I have heard my inner voice And finally can rejoice I was lost and way down Never thought that I would be Amazing but now I'm free Desperate (oh so desperate) So confined (so confined) Every day (oh) losing touch (losing touch) of my mind (Of my mind, oh) I found that strength (So I found that strength) In my pride (And I've gave my pride) Isn't it crazy, so amazing I'm alive Amazing I have heard my inner voice And finally can rejoice I was lost and way down Never thought that I would be Amazing but now I'm free Amazing I have heard my inner voice And finally can rejoice I was lost and way down Never thought that I would be Amazing but now I'm free So free, amazing that now I'm free Searching For on 11/03/2003 05:48:00 PM.
I love you baby, so incredibly much~ Searching For on 11/03/2003 05:45:00 PM.
How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh Outweigh the bad. I thought we'd get to see forever But forever's gone away It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday. I don't know where this road Is going to lead. All I konw is where we've been And what we've been through. If we get to see tomorrow I hope it's worth all the wait It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday. And I'll take with me the memories To be my sunshine after the rain It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday. Searching For on 11/03/2003 05:41:00 PM.
Oh my.....the crazy things life brings us. I'm so getting a shirt that says if I'm fucking him, I'm sure as hell not fucking you.......
Leap of Faith 17 [4:43 PM]: Okay so I'm afraid to make the catapult Leap of Faith 17 [4:43 PM]: what if it kills me? Leap of Faith 17 [4:43 PM]: lol Ranger Hoot [4:43 PM]: it wont kill you Leap of Faith 17 [4:44 PM]: the whole splintering wood thing Leap of Faith 17 [4:44 PM]: lol Ranger Hoot [4:44 PM]: all the trees im killing Ranger Hoot [4:44 PM]: government rite now Leap of Faith 17 [4:44 PM]: lol Leap of Faith 17 [4:44 PM]: yes Ranger Hoot [4:45 PM]: thats the trees at the moment that im killing Leap of Faith 17 [4:45 PM]: I'm working on 2 of those Leap of Faith 17 [4:45 PM]: I killed some trees for calc too Leap of Faith 17 [4:45 PM]: how should I feel about prayer in school? Ranger Hoot [4:46 PM]: yeah im about half way done with calc Leap of Faith 17 [4:46 PM]: lol Ranger Hoot [4:46 PM]: prayer im nuetral Leap of Faith 17 [4:46 PM]: those word problems man Ranger Hoot [4:46 PM]: they shouldn't take it out of the pledge Leap of Faith 17 [4:46 PM]: yeah Leap of Faith 17 [4:46 PM]: that's Leap of Faith 17 [4:46 PM]: dumb Leap of Faith 17 [4:46 PM]: hmm Leap of Faith 17 [4:46 PM]: that's from Calif huh? Ranger Hoot [4:46 PM]: but i get a little irritated when like kelly say reads from the bible Ranger Hoot [4:47 PM]: calif? Ranger Hoot [4:47 PM]: nm Leap of Faith 17 [4:47 PM]: yeah well we're reading the King James Version in English Ranger Hoot [4:48 PM]: i only got 4 paragraphs done Ranger Hoot [4:48 PM]: really Leap of Faith 17 [4:49 PM]: 4 paragraphs in government Ranger Hoot [4:49 PM]: yeah Ranger Hoot [4:49 PM]: im working on prayer rite now Ranger Hoot [4:49 PM]: 1 paragraph per page rite Leap of Faith 17 [4:51 PM]: 1 page Ranger Hoot [4:51 PM]: ? Leap of Faith 17 [4:52 PM]: I page not a pargraph dear Ranger Hoot [4:52 PM]: im pretty sure just one paragraph Leap of Faith 17 [4:52 PM]: lol Ranger Hoot [4:53 PM]: my understanding was 1 paragraph on each sheet of paper Leap of Faith 17 [4:53 PM]: nope Leap of Faith 17 [4:53 PM]: well Ranger Hoot [4:53 PM]: cuz we all thought that it was so stupid Leap of Faith 17 [4:53 PM]: you have to define it, tell your opinion and back it up Leap of Faith 17 [4:53 PM]: lol well we're the "smart" class so Ranger Hoot [4:53 PM]: ok Leap of Faith 17 [4:53 PM]: we may have different crap Leap of Faith 17 [4:53 PM]: she likes to give us "Extra assignments' Ranger Hoot [4:53 PM]: yeah Ranger Hoot [4:54 PM]: i said that before Ranger Hoot [4:54 PM]: i asked if you were in the honors gov class Ranger Hoot [4:54 PM]: even though one really doesnt' exist Leap of Faith 17 [4:54 PM]: lol Leap of Faith 17 [4:54 PM]: sorry Leap of Faith 17 [4:54 PM]: yeah Ranger Hoot [4:55 PM]: sorry for what? Ranger Hoot [4:55 PM]: dont be Ranger Hoot [4:55 PM]: you know it would take quite a bit to make me upset at you Leap of Faith 17 [4:56 PM]: lol yeah but it was my bad Ranger Hoot [4:57 PM]: what it is just a paragraph or that you forgot i knew you were in the special class Leap of Faith 17 [4:59 PM]: lol Leap of Faith 17 [4:59 PM]: both? Ranger Hoot [4:59 PM]: ok Ranger Hoot [4:59 PM]: anyway Leap of Faith 17 [4:59 PM]: lol just so you know, we're going to end up competing against my boyfriend at physics olympics prolly directly Leap of Faith 17 [4:59 PM]: so if we lose I'll be dishonored Leap of Faith 17 [4:59 PM]: lol Ranger Hoot [5:00 PM]: bring it on! Leap of Faith 17 [5:00 PM]: lol Leap of Faith 17 [5:00 PM]: awesome Leap of Faith 17 [5:00 PM]: lol Ranger Hoot [5:00 PM]: so we're doin the catapalt together rite? Leap of Faith 17 [5:00 PM]: yes! Leap of Faith 17 [5:01 PM]: we're going to have to make the thing like strong as hell Leap of Faith 17 [5:01 PM]: and not scare me by spontanously combusting Leap of Faith 17 [5:01 PM]: lol Ranger Hoot [5:01 PM]: oh yeah you said i was your partner for the rest of the year huh? Ranger Hoot [5:01 PM]: yeah it will be Ranger Hoot [5:01 PM]: i got some really heavy wood Leap of Faith 17 [5:01 PM]: yeah you're so stuck with me Ranger Hoot [5:02 PM]: i dont have any ideas at the moment i havent had time to think about it Leap of Faith 17 [5:02 PM]: I think elastic is a better idea than rubber bands Leap of Faith 17 [5:02 PM]: other than that Leap of Faith 17 [5:03 PM]: I've got nothing except it'll contain a hook and ...eye? and prolly a pipe and some wood Leap of Faith 17 [5:04 PM]: lol Ranger Hoot [5:04 PM]: ill worry about it after government Leap of Faith 17 [5:04 PM]: yeah true that Ranger Hoot [5:04 PM]: and calc Leap of Faith 17 [5:04 PM]: I'm easily side-tracked Leap of Faith 17 [5:04 PM]: lol Ranger Hoot [5:05 PM]: thats ok Ranger Hoot [5:05 PM]: so did nate say yes im sure he did Ranger Hoot [5:05 PM]: i gotta ask Ranger Hoot [5:05 PM]: soorry Leap of Faith 17 [5:05 PM]: no Leap of Faith 17 [5:05 PM]: we're not going Leap of Faith 17 [5:05 PM]: lol Ranger Hoot [5:06 PM]: no as in he said no or no he hasn't answered yet Ranger Hoot [5:06 PM]: sorry im just Leap of Faith 17 [5:06 PM]: lol Ranger Hoot [5:06 PM]: oh im a jerk sorry Leap of Faith 17 [5:06 PM]: lol Leap of Faith 17 [5:06 PM]: no you're not Leap of Faith 17 [5:06 PM]: I don't mind talking about Nate, I tend to shy away from it actually b/c I dont want to be a Laura Leap of Faith 17 [5:06 PM]: lol Leap of Faith 17 [5:07 PM]: I think we're going out afterwards Leap of Faith 17 [5:07 PM]: with everyone Ranger Hoot [5:07 PM]: i hear that and her a lot more Ranger Hoot [5:07 PM]: oh ok Ranger Hoot [5:07 PM]: but why not actually go Leap of Faith 17 [5:07 PM]: lol I don't want to Ranger Hoot [5:07 PM]: oh Leap of Faith 17 [5:07 PM]: Nate hasn't met everyone yet Leap of Faith 17 [5:07 PM]: I like it that way Leap of Faith 17 [5:07 PM]: lol Ranger Hoot [5:08 PM]: that'll shut me up for just abit Ranger Hoot [5:08 PM]: and that line of questionings done Ranger Hoot [5:08 PM]: shoot Leap of Faith 17 [5:08 PM]: lol Leap of Faith 17 [5:08 PM]: I already asked if he would get ticked if I went with someone else Ranger Hoot [5:09 PM]: crap you know i have to inquire Ranger Hoot [5:10 PM]: you dont have to answer but im oblagated to ask Leap of Faith 17 [5:10 PM]: lol Leap of Faith 17 [5:10 PM]: he used my own words against me Leap of Faith 17 [5:10 PM]: something along the lines of over his dead decrepit body Ranger Hoot [5:10 PM]: what? oh he asked if you'd mind rite? Ranger Hoot [5:11 PM]: you know if you want that to happen badly enough i could be of assistance Ranger Hoot [5:11 PM]: j/k Leap of Faith 17 [5:11 PM]: lol that's what I was thinking genius Leap of Faith 17 [5:12 PM]: but I do as he wishes Leap of Faith 17 [5:12 PM]: so Ranger Hoot [5:13 PM]: wheres the trust it's not like youd be going with some one who may be border line obsessed and has had a crush on you since like the 6th grad Ranger Hoot [5:13 PM]: oops that just sorta slipped out didn't it Leap of Faith 17 [5:13 PM]: lol Ranger Hoot [5:13 PM]: ok now i have reached my quota for today Ranger Hoot [5:14 PM]: there's no nice way to say obsessed is there Ranger Hoot [5:15 PM]: i got no advice here Ranger Hoot [5:15 PM]: good advice any way Ranger Hoot [5:15 PM]: that little devil on my shoulder says other wise but Ranger Hoot [5:15 PM]: i dont listen to him Ranger Hoot [5:16 PM]: often anyway Ranger Hoot [5:16 PM]: i could understand his concern though Leap of Faith 17 [5:16 PM]: lol Leap of Faith 17 [5:16 PM]: for me? Leap of Faith 17 [5:17 PM]: yeah I'm not the best girlfriend Ranger Hoot [5:17 PM]: no the devils concern for me Ranger Hoot [5:17 PM]: of course i mean you Leap of Faith 17 [5:18 PM]: lol Ranger Hoot [5:18 PM]: sorry that was sorta rude that cynisism is really shining thru Leap of Faith 17 [5:18 PM]: I don't mind it really Leap of Faith 17 [5:18 PM]: if I did I'd have told you go to hell long ago Ranger Hoot [5:19 PM]: oh sh*t Ranger Hoot [5:19 PM]: government Leap of Faith 17 [5:21 PM]: ? Leap of Faith 17 [5:21 PM]: lo Leap of Faith 17 [5:21 PM]: in paricular Ranger Hoot [5:21 PM]: sorta got side tracked Ranger Hoot [5:22 PM]: real quick summary though Ranger Hoot [5:22 PM]: no way you could go to dance with some one other than nate rite? Ranger Hoot [5:22 PM]: rite Leap of Faith 17 [5:23 PM]: lol I could but I'd be out of boyfriend Ranger Hoot [5:24 PM]: inless you were to pick one up in your date Ranger Hoot [5:24 PM]: sorry its obvious what im getting at im gonna shut up now you and nate should be together i just cant help myself sometimes Leap of Faith 17 [5:24 PM]: lol Leap of Faith 17 [5:25 PM]: you're sweet, but Nate and I have been to hell and back Leap of Faith 17 [5:25 PM]: many times Ranger Hoot [5:25 PM]: i know Leap of Faith 17 [5:25 PM]: lol Leap of Faith 17 [5:25 PM]: and I love him, which you also know Ranger Hoot [5:25 PM]: ? Leap of Faith 17 [5:25 PM]: but I'd feel like a horrible girlfriend if I didn't reiterate Leap of Faith 17 [5:25 PM]: lol Ranger Hoot [5:25 PM]: did you do that on purpose Leap of Faith 17 [5:25 PM]: no Leap of Faith 17 [5:25 PM]: on accident Leap of Faith 17 [5:25 PM]: lol Leap of Faith 17 [5:25 PM]: I love him Leap of Faith 17 [5:26 PM]: I love you just...differently? Ranger Hoot [5:26 PM]: ok Ranger Hoot [5:26 PM]: thanx for clearing that up that would have messed with me and had my hopes up for weeks Leap of Faith 17 [5:26 PM]: lol Leap of Faith 17 [5:26 PM]: yeah I can see that Leap of Faith 17 [5:27 PM]: although it could be a sign Leap of Faith 17 [5:27 PM]: I'm teasing, I love him without question Searching For on 11/03/2003 05:25:00 PM.
I´LL MAKE LOVE TO YOU (BOYZ II MEN)
Close your eyes, make a wish and blow out the candlelight For tonight is just your night we´re gonna celebrate, all thru the night. Pour the wine, light the fire Girl your wish is my command, I submit to your demands I´ll do anything, girl you need only ask I´ll make love to you, like you want me to And I´ll hold you tight baby all through the night... ...When you want me to and I will not let go Till you tell me to. Girl relax, let´s go slow I ain´t got nowhere to go, I´m just gonna concentrate on you Girl are you ready, it´s gonna be a long night Throw your clothes on the floor, I´m gonna take my clothes off too I made plans to be with you... Girl whatever you ask me you know I´ll do Baby tonight is your night and I will do you right Just make a wish on your night anything that you ask I will give you the love of your life... Searching For on 11/03/2003 05:06:00 PM.
11.02.2003 I have the best....absolute best greatest boyfriend in the world. Honey you're stuck with me forever, so you had best love me a whole lot. I love you more than I say to you, you're perfect and wonderful, amazing and marvelous...I love you~ Searching For on 11/02/2003 01:45:00 AM.
11.01.2003 Nathen is going to kill me. I would kill me. I just, mrph, I hate having those flashbacks and everytime...when it suprises me, than I'm caught off guard and I suffer later, after the bliss. How do I explain that? I love you so much, please don't doubt that~ Searching For on 11/01/2003 12:29:00 AM.
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