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12.24.2002

“About the only thing that comes to us without effort is old age.”
--Gloria Pitzer

“Excuses are the nails used to build a house of failure.”
--Don Wilder and Bill Rechin

“Life doesn't happen to us, it happens from us.”
--Mike Wickett

Don’t lose your sense of humor:

“A person without a sense of humor is like a wagon without springs. It's jolted by every pebble on the road.”
--Henry Ward Beecher

“Humor is perhaps a sense of intellectual perspective: an awareness that some things are really important, others not; and that the two kinds are most oddly jumbled in everyday affairs.”
--Christopher Morley

“Common sense and a sense of humor are the same thing, moving at different speeds. A sense of humor is just common sense, dancing.”
--William James


Searching For on 12/24/2002 12:59:00 AM.


“Sometimes questions are more important than answers.”
--Nancy Willard

“There is no royal road to anything. One thing at a time, all things in succession. That which grows fast, withers as rapidly. That which grows slowly, endures.”
--Josiah Gilbert Holland

“Every day I get up and look through the Forbes list of the richest people in America. If I'm not there, I go to work.”
--Robert Orben

Your brain is like a database: you have to know how to access it:

“Reason and the ability to use it are two separate skills.”
--Franz Grillparzer

“No brain is stronger than its weakest think.”
--Thomas L. Masson

“The brain is the only part of the human machine that doesn't wear out. Probably it's because the brain is the only part that is not overworked.”
--Anon.


Searching For on 12/24/2002 12:56:00 AM.


and the word of the year!!!
Subreption (n.) a calculated misrepresentation through concealment of the facts; an inference drawn from such a misrepresentation


Searching For on 12/24/2002 12:38:00 AM.


When there is no enemy within, the enemies outside cannot hurt you."
--African Proverb

"Blessed is the man who, having nothing to say, abstains from giving us worthy evidence of the fact."
---George Eliot

"Don't let anyone steal your dreams!"
--Brian Cavanough

Take a laugh break:

"The kind of humor I like is the thing that makes me laugh for five seconds and think for ten minutes."
--William Davis

"Humor is the great thing, the saving thing. The minute it crops up, all our irritation and resentments slip away, and a sunny spirit takes their place."
--Mark Twain

"Warning: Humor may be hazardous to your illness."
--Ellie Katz


Searching For on 12/24/2002 12:38:00 AM.


12.23.2002

I know these forwards get old, but this one touched me very much so, so of course I must post and the proverb is so beautiful....BREAKFAST AT MCDONALD'S...

I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my
college degree. The last class I had to take was Sociology.
The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every
human being had been graced with. Her last project of the term was called "Smile."

The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document
their reactions.

I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello
anyway, so I thought this would be a piece of cake, literally.

Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I
went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning.

It was just our way of sharing special play time with our son.
We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, and then even my husband did. I did not move an inch .....
an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up inside of me as I turned to see why they had moved.

As I turned around I smelled a horrible "dirty body" smell, and there
standing behind me were two poor homeless men. As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was "smiling".

His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he searched for acceptance.
He said, "Good day" as he counted the few coins he had been clutching.
The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend.
I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue eyed gentleman was his salvation.

I held my tears as I stood there with them. The young lady at the counter
asked him what they wanted. He said, "Coffee is all Miss" because that was all they could afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to buy
something. He just wanted to be warm). Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes.
That is when I noticed all eyes in the restaurant were set on me, judging my every action.

I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two more
breakfast meals on a separate tray. I then walked around the corner
to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot. I put the tray on the table
and laid my hand on the blue eyed gentleman's cold hand. He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, "Thank you.."

I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, "I did not do this for you.
God is here working through me to give you hope." I started to cry as I walked away
to join my husband and son. When I sat down my husband smiled at me and said, "That is why God gave you to me, Honey. To give me hope."

We held hands for a moment and at that time we knew that only because
of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give.

We are not church goers, but we are believers.

That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love.

I returned to college, on the last evening of class,
with this story in hand. I turned in "my project" and the instructor read it.

Then she looked up at me and said, "Can I share this?"

I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class.

She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings and being part of God, share this need to heal people and to be healed.

In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's,
my husband, son, instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom
on the last night I spent as a college student.

I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would ever learn:
UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE.

Much love and compassion is sent to each and every person who may read
this and learn how to
LOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS
- NOT LOVE THINGS AND USE PEOPLE.

If you think this story has touched you in any way, please send this to
everyone you know.

An Angel wrote: Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only
true friends will leave footprints in your heart.


To handle yourself, use your head.
To handle others, use your heart.


If there is light in the soul, there will be beauty in the person.
If there is beauty in the person, there will be harmony in the house.
If there is harmony in the house, there will be order in the nation.
If there is order in the nation, there will be peace in the world.

Chinese Proverb


Searching For on 12/23/2002 06:31:00 PM.


12.19.2002

I have never been more happy to sing all day. It really helped this hellish weeks turned into an ok one. I still have the research paper....but after that tonight....I shall be done and over it. I can't wait. This past week has been absolute hell when it comes to just about everything. I'm going Christmas shopping on Saturday, but I can't decided if I wish to go alone or with someone. It wouldn't be so hard if I were going with Lana, gosh I wish I were. Right now, she is exactly what I need, there is no Christmas cheer here. You have no idea how much I wish I was coming down there. At this point I'd pay my own way if I had the cash. I do believe no seeing you has made life quite a bit more difficult, espcially since this summer we started becoming insperable again without annoying the hell out of each other. If I may only have you here or be there, watching Changing Rooms or Trading Spaces...or shopping. Oh girl, I miss you so incredibly much. This is just awful.
I might need some equite reflection shopping. I've never been shopping completely by myself. Isn't that awful? I've had my license for over a year and I've never gone to the mall to shop by myself. I saw something I should have gotten Phil @ the Gap outlet, but I just didn't believe I could take it at that moment. I think I"m going to take a short nap, an hour tops and then come back down and finish this research paper up. I'm hoping (knocks on wood) it won't be too incredibly terrible as I only appear to have a few short things to do. I've had enough lates night this week. I didn't go to track today because I just didn't think I would be able to handle it. One more hellish day, that is all. One more day in going to school in clothes that don't fit and are incredibly short and uncomfortable. 6 more days until my new, comfy wardrobe appears. Lana you would be so proud of me! Well, I'm spent. need....nap...not in the mood to deal with the jerk of the century (Chris). I am really messed up about him. Sleep bring me the answers~


Searching For on 12/19/2002 02:50:00 PM.


12.16.2002

It's all better....


Searching For on 12/16/2002 07:53:00 PM.


it's gotta be the PMS.......let it be PMS


Searching For on 12/16/2002 07:25:00 PM.


I've just made 6 posts today......it isn't obvious I'm going crazy is it? WHY CAN'T HE JUST BLOCK HIMSELF!


Searching For on 12/16/2002 07:21:00 PM.


I would really enjoy some padded walls about now. I feel so yuck! I feel like sleeping forever and like bouncing off the ceiling. Once again, I reiterate, I do not like these feelings


Searching For on 12/16/2002 07:20:00 PM.


I don't like waiting, I already apologized. It would be better if he blocked me, then I won't know. Well ok I would, but I'd pretend not to. He ususally just blocks me....it's easier......oh good grief.


Searching For on 12/16/2002 07:19:00 PM.


arg, he won't answer me and I can't call him with my parents home. I just don't want to, b/c if I start crying or some other bizarre chick thing, they're going to think I'm nutty and ask questions. UGHUHGUHGUHG. I've the worst headache and stomache (i know i know, stress) what I wouldn't do for a snow day!!!!!!


Searching For on 12/16/2002 07:18:00 PM.


ugh, I feel so torn up inside and I'm not enjoying this feeling. Not even my 2nd favorite movie, "Songcatcher" could cheer me up. So much to do and I broke down and watched a movie. Eh, what's a girl to do when she's so frustrated and upset. I don't care for this being upset over a guy. Ususally it's out of sight, out of mind. If this isn't my PMS beginning, I'm going to become very, very, afraid.


Searching For on 12/16/2002 07:16:00 PM.


I hate when my mom does this! It's so freaking annoying. It's 7, so she's taking a shower and she's on the phone. Ok, so she ties up everything at this hour and then she can't understand why I have to stay up until 12 to finish things!!!!!! B/c she hogs everything. She knows I'm trying to get on, she just told Grandma I was for school, but did she nicely tell grandma, she needs to use it, so I'll call you back or tommorrow....Oh no, never in her life would she want to do something like SHARE. She'll be annoyed when she comes down, I interrupted her phone time after all! Ugh, I love my mother but I HATE when she does this, it's so extremely annoying!!! I know I don't have to get on for school, I'm just having a life crisis today that's all. I just wanted a few spare, relaxing mintues after being continually stressed with this research paper and math anal. 15 minutes, how awful is that to ask for? Instead I get more grief and more everything. Daddy is watching tv, so he kicked me out of there, and it's not like their is a room I can be in without hearing one or the other. Sometimes they just piss me off with their inconsiderateness. I love it then when I get so frustrated and I try my hardest to say something in an controlled tone and I get in trouble for saying something. In this house you must never correct a person, or ask kindly for a compromise, nope, it's their way or the highway.....good grief!


Searching For on 12/16/2002 07:12:00 PM.


Anyone any good at apologies? I'm awful


Searching For on 12/16/2002 04:00:00 PM.


Of course, blogger always works when I have a confused or upset post, but never when I have an "I'm so happy!" post. Oh well. Yesterday I wrote this lovely entry all about happiness and love and commitment. Now well, eh I don't feel like writing all about flowers and poses. I shall some though. Chris and I have been talking (obviously) but we were actually serious and we both agree it's time to at least try to make this thing work. It's time to stop coming and going as we please. We had this great dicussion and were willing to give it a try. Ok, so I won't share with my mom just yet...but I am ready to make my own commitment. Then last night I know I upset him and I didn't mean to. We were serious for awhile and then we started joking around b/c we're both huge haters of internet relationships and then he said something out of the blue, as ususal and I was still in a joking mood and well.....he wasn't. Ususally I would just let this go and wait until he got over it. But now it's different, I felt horrible all day today and just felt so awful. I kept it to myself except for Carrie and I just felt awful. Of course maybe those are my hormones talking but...if I had the cellphone I'd call him and I would be home alone and able to tell him how I really feel without fear of everything going through the vents. I think he just tried to call but I'm not really sure. ugh. What to do what to do......maybe some hw will take my mind off it......probably not but one can hope foolishly now can't one?


Searching For on 12/16/2002 03:52:00 PM.


Will blogger post today?


Searching For on 12/16/2002 03:33:00 PM.


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